4 April 2020

Truth | I Spend 90% of my time in bed



Okay, maybe 90% of the time is a slight exaggeration, but I do love my bed - that statement has never been more true. It's always been my sanctuary, my safe space. In fact my love of bed goes beyond the hunger for an undisturbed nights sleep. This love runs deep. 

Through heartbreak, love and loss my bed no matter where I've lived has always felt truly my everything. In times when I felt entirely alone my bedroom has been my best friend. My bed knows my every truth. Everything. Over the years it's also been the surface for multiple laughs, meals, glasses of wine and serious talks among friends. Ultimately somewhere for us all to seek comfort in casualness.

Thinking back, I'm not sure when exactly or why I decided my bed was the one, but it started from a young age. My mum worked lots and my sister was the total opposite to me. She enjoyed the noise and was very much an extrovert. We bickered a lot and couldn't always handle each other. I, I suppose at some point decided that seeking calm within the safety of my room could help me escape when I felt overwhelmed. 

There have only been a few occasions in recent years that have led me to feel the same sense of worry / dread I experienced so fondly as a child thankfully. Now being a little older, wiser and with my own home, I've got the ability to control the atmosphere somewhat, and have been able to create solutions that work both for myself and my partner. When he's feeling full of energy and I require a little less noise, I head off for my downtime with laptop in hand and blog content on the brain. It works because if I hadn't mentioned it already, I love spending time in bed. I'm literally writing this now IN BED.


In addition, through establishing a bed time routine that I can stick to at least 50% of the time, getting a good nights sleep comes easy these days. I have two methods...one involves running around like a mad women for 12 hours, before returning home to shower, eat dinner and pass out in bed around half 9. The other involves watching Netflix, chatting to my partner and avoiding my phone. However, there are rare occasions that require ear plugs and my eye mask - for instances when I feel a sense of anxiousness, where switching off all senses is required

My mornings are usually where things feel a little trickier...

As I've grown older the devotion if not need to spend multiple hours lounging in bed has become almost addictive. Sometimes I feel as though I have to drag myself up. My brain wants to move but my body feels trapped by security and warmth. I've wasted so many mornings that could have been productive hiding away from the world, shielded underneath my duvet - this mindset often leaves me kicking myself for the rest of the day, as I'm actually an early bird if you would believe it! On mornings where I do muster up the energy to scramble out of bed, I'm the most productive person and feel a sense of joy like non other. 

However, some days spent in bed have been my most productive and rewarding oddly. In fact some of my biggest achievements to date such as creating this blog and earning my degree happened whilst hibernating. These two things I'm enormously proud of, one of which was far from the stress free vibe you might wish your bedroom to be. 

Mostly though, life is calm and undisturbed when I'm tucked up in bed and that's what I love so much - that's why it's so difficult to leave and begin the day. Whilst my duvet swallows me up whole, birds are chirping, my neighbours are going about their lives and everything continues. I find a weird sense of pleasure knowing that whether my head is thumping and my eyes are yearning to shut, or whether I'm loving every moment of lounging in bed, life is continuing around me. Time stops and serenity exists. Nobody knows I'm home. It's my time to feel the most unapologetically me.








12 comments

  1. This is such a great post and I'm completely the same! I used to spend so much time in bed but then I started associating it with just being lazy and unproductive however more recently when working from home, I can be just as productive in bed as I do at my desk :-)
    Sarah x

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    1. Thank you for reading. I'm so pleased that you also have a close relationship with your bed haha, and that it's not all negative! I find most of my inspiration to write from the comfort of my bed - it really is my happy place x

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  2. Haha I love this. But all true. A bed is a safe haven. One's own room at that. For me, that was the hardest thing about moving in with my boyfriend now husband. I had a hard time sharing my sacred space. But now, we have a guest room and I've turned it into an extension of my own room. Great post, great topic :)

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    1. Thanks for reading. I'm certainly envious that your spare bedroom is now an extension of your own room. Sadly my spare bedroom is currently my partners game room / studio / office x

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  3. I agree with all.of this I don't normally spend alot of time at my house so anything before the isolation period id be resting or relaxing, now I can work from the comfort of my bed and it's great x

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    1. So pleased to hear that you find comfort working from bed too. I've always loved the idea of having my own office, but in reality I'd never use the space unless I needed to work from home and my blog was to really take off into my own business. Hope you're doing well and staying safe x

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  4. This hits home, and over this weekend I really didn’t want to get out of bed. My son has probably been close to 90% the last few days, he’s really struggling with the situation.

    Sometimes you need that time in your safe space though, as long as it doesn’t become a “problem”.

    Adam - http://daddoesautism.com

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  5. I can really relate to some of these feelings you have with your bed! When my anxiety was at it's worst, I spent about 95% of my time in my bed. And even when it got better and I started working from home, I work from my bed. Because I don't have a dedicated work space. My bed is my soul mate haha <3 x

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    1. I'm glad you can relate but have a much more positive relationship with your bed these days. I probably spend far too much time under my duvet, but it honestly is where I feel most productive and comfortable working from home x

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  6. Same!! My bed is my safe haven! If I'm unwell my bed is where I want to be, when my anxiety was at it's worst I struggled to get out of bed and would do as much as I could from my bed.

    Emma.
    emmarollason.com

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    1. It's amazing, I never really thought when I wrote this that so many people would relate. I've been through similar in terms of anxiety. When it's at it's worst I can't leave my bed at all and it's a horrible cycle because I feel worse for staying in bed, yet I can't get out. Thankfully those days are rare and I hope they are for you too x

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  7. It's so true - life wrapped up in blankets is calm and peaceful Outside of that anything seems possible!

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