Confession | I'm Addicted to My Phone
Okay, it's fantastic that my blog is doing well and that I've found a new love for writing however, It's somewhat come at a price...
I think I'm addicted to my phone now and I've accumulated some unhealthy habits.
I probably sound ridiculous and I don't mean to complain because I absolutely love my blog at the moment, but I guess I'm just worried for my own sanity?
My partner of almost four years is screaming out for me to put the damn phone down. I can literally feel him side eyeing me as I pick up my Iphone for the millionth time to scroll through Instagram. During ad breaks we've agreed that it's fine to have a quick look, but seriously when did I actually last fully pay attention to whatever we're watching? When did I last show my partner proper affection for longer than just a glance over to say "I love you" before continuing to bend my neck awkwardly to peer at my phone once more.
I'm the worst at the moment because I'm feeling incredibly excited and motivated to create content, but there's absolutely no balance. My right hand feels lost and my eyes become dizzy if I'm not pointlessly trawling through Twitter or Instagram.
Writing this now I'm fully aware that I've been on and off my phone all day whilst creating content on my laptop, and I feel dreary as a result.
For the most part, I feel shameful admitting that I've been prioritizing social media too often over real life relationships and using every moment as an opportunity to grab my camera. Although I'm also super proud of the brand I'm beginning to curate, the writer I'm becoming and the photography skills I've been able to establish so far. I don't want to ignore or undermine those achievements.
What's my plan of action then? I mean, I don't know if I really have a strict one?
In terms of my routine I mostly have that figured out. However, it just seems that as the day goes on and I've completed whatever chores need doing etc I return to my phone and probably don't look back up until bedtime. Is this why my posture is so terrible?...probably.
I'd love someone to recommend me some real sound advice on how to wind down of an evening and become social media free that doesn't start with "read a book before bed" though.
My only saving grace is that I can definitely say for at least two or three days per week I'll hardly be looking at my phone at all, and my brain is definitely not in a blog / social media obsessed funk. Working twelve hour shifts where access to your mobile is prohibited is quite useful in that respect. In addition, I'm also happy to report that spending hours on end looking at my screen doesn't appear to have impacted my sleeping pattern thankfully.
The lesson I've learnt from putting these thoughts into writing is that I think I need to make another NY resolution - It's not too late is it? I need to find a more balanced lifestyle moving forward. I must remember that my relationship is top priority however. I hate feeling disconnected because I'm trying to up my following on Instagram or promote a blog post on Twitter. In reality I have plenty of hours in the day before he's home to accommodate this blog of mine, and through better planning I should be able to achieve everything I still hope to moving forward. Time is not the issue here, it's my time management that needs some tweaking.