The Little Crunch

Personal Development | Mental Health | Slow Living

Self Love | There's More to Me


I'm a 5'0" mid sized girl, but I've always felt I should be something else ~ slimmer, taller, with better posture or with more evenly proportioned features. For years I would've told you I was confident and happy with my appearance but I wasn't. I was lying. In reality I'd stand in front of my mirror every morning doubting my self worth and wishing to change.

I never truly understood that beauty comes from within until I had to go through the worst and pull myself back out. I always saw myself as a negative or nervous young adult, restless and timid but, in fact, I'm a kind-hearted, loving and supportive person. I'm a good friend a loyal partner and reliable colleague. Those things I've never given myself credit for until now.

The process of fulling liking myself is a slow one that constantly challenges me, but less than a month into the new decade and I'm already noticing a huge shift in my self-esteem. I've began to feel safer within myself. Safer might seem an odd word choice, yet I say it because I don't feel worried much any more. I don't worry about my mental health being so low that I won't be able to cope with disliking myself. I don't worry and feel unloved because of my appearance and I feel safe because I'm surrounded by people in my personal life and on social media who uplift me when I'm feeling down. I feel safe in the knowledge that I know exactly who I am, what makes me tick and the kind of lifestyle I need to sustain moving forward.

The journey is just beginning though. I need to love myself inside and out. To feel comfortable everyday and empowered. To understand that my body may not ever be where I want it to be and to love myself regardless.

So, in order to continuously move forward I aim to keep sharing more of me on my blog and social media when I feel comfortable. Hopefully not just through a spontaneous selfie when I see a cute/funny filter on Instagram, but through lots of practice with my camera and sometimes using my partner as my very own little photographer (which he absolutely hates by the way). I also want to share the highs and lows of my journey, to uplift and engage my audience and to grow as a writer as a result.

There is more to me than yesterday and I look forward to the road ahead.









Comments

  1. This is such a brilliant post! I'm at the very start of my self-esteem journey since I started therapy next week but you're giving me such a push to start learning to love myself! You've got this!!

    Daisy xoxo | TheDeeWhoLived

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    1. Thank you so much for reading. A few years ago I went through therapy which totally changed my outlook on life and I'm so grateful for that experience. Wishing you all the best on your journey x

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  2. I am in awe at your beautiful writing. Thank you so much for sharing such a personal post.

    Lindifique

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    1. That's the nicest compliment I've received. Thank you so much for your kindness x

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  3. Such a beautifully raw post and I love your attitude shift. As a fellow 5ft dot I've definitely struggled with self esteem in the height department before and can relate there. It takes a lot to accept what we deem to be our imperfections x

    Sophie
    www.glowsteady.co.uk

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    1. Thank you so much for reading. I'm so pleased you can relate as a fellow short girl but am sad to learn about your struggles too. Wishing you all the best x

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  4. I know it's cliche, but YASSS girl! Love yourself for the strong person you are! It's hard to appreciate ourselves when there's so much messaging saying that we (especially women) don't deserve to love ourselves because of how we look. I'm so glad you've come out of the bad times stronger than ever. Keep being a badass!

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  5. Good luck as you continue on this journey of self discovery and self love. It was incredibly brave of you to share such a personal post and your experience is something I and many others can relate to xxx

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  6. I absolutely love that end line, "there's more to me than yesterday". It's so true that we grow every day, even if it's in ways that we or nobody else sees. I also learned to love myself through trauma and realised that the body I despised whilst I was growing up didn't actually matter if the person inside was decent, moral and loving. Really love this post.
    Alice Xx
    http://www.blacktulipbeauty.co.uk

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    1. Thank you so much for reading! This post was inspired by one of my favourite poems by Morgan Harper Nichols titled There's More to You Than Yesterday. It's so beautiful and has really helped me through some dark times x

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  7. I love this! You wrote it so beautifully. It was like reading a diary input, in an inspiring way.

    Louise || https://www.lcsbeauty.com/

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